Sometimes, theres just the pen and paper to listen

so, just because your parents/guardians go out of town, doesn’t mean it’s a good idea to leave to house every chance you get…

its a long story, but you get the jist (sp?), right? well either way, i got grounded for this weekend, which i totally dont mind, because i deserved it.

ON THE PLUS SIDE…my aunt was rad and let me go to graduation last night :’(
it was sooooo sad. and it sucks, cause the girl thomas left me for, is now one of my good friends, and she’s just talking normal girl talk with me, but she ALWAYS talks about him, and she has a bf, and he has a gf, and i miss him…and i hear her constantly talking about him (because they’re all bff now and he barely talks to me) and when i have something to say about him, like a conversation we had or, a message i got, she always has a story to out do mine. and it sucks. like for example at graduation, he barely said two words to me, and he called her after graduation to talk about things. I ACTUALLY DATED HIM, she just “talked” to him.

stupid little stuff like that hurts me alot, and it gets me thinking. and im not sure why.
i dont know if i get too attached to people, if i care to much, or if im just to worried about what other people think. DX (mad smiley face)  and not to lie, but i get jealous. and i dont like that feeling

please help?

there’s a guy named hayden. he pretty much holds my heart in the palm of his peruvian hands (yes, he’s peruvian). But no joke, this guy is amazing. we have the classic love story. we date, fall in love, he breaks my heart. but theres a twist to the happily ever after…it’s been three months since we broke up. BUT, we still talk everyday, and we’ve gone through the “let’s just be friends” stage…niether of us can find it possible to do so. when we are together, its only us (lame with an extra side of CHEESE) but seriously, he’s my everything. i cant see myself without him at this point. and i love him WAY too much to just let him slip out of my life.

AND I KNOW WHAT SOME OF YOU ARE THINKING.
and you shouldn’t judge.
you dont see how happy he makes me when he’s around me.
you dont know how it feels when he hugs me…you just dont.
he means the world plus 20 millionbajillion to me. and i dont wanna lose him. ever.